Book 3, section 2

The days pass without notice, and eventually start to blend together. The pain I am put through was expected from the start, but I didn't realize how much it would wear on my soul. They keep trying to force a confession from me, but I have already told them everything. So I make ones up. I blame people I have never even talked to. They eventually put me in a room, with O' Brien, where they can put me through excruciating pain at their whim. He is telling me that I am crazy. That I am lying to myself. That 2+2=5. But I can't help it, My brain tells me there is 4, even though I desperatly want to see 5. I want to do anything to make the pain stop. He says he is trying to make me better, to cure me. But I fear that if O'brien keeps this up. I won't live long enough to recover from whatever ailment he believes I have.